What's So Hard About Life These Days

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 Life today is really hard. It's hard growing old. Your body is tired, your mind is tired, and generally life seems to suck most of the time. There aren't a whole lot of bright spots anymore, not much to look forward too. Life seems to be one doctor appointment after the other for one or more ailments.

Arthritis is not for sissies, either. It hurts. I have a bum shoulder which give me pain most of the time. I fell on it years ago and damaged the muscles and tendons, but didn't break anything. Now, I have developed arthritis in that shoulder, and my Doc tells me that the shoulder joint is now "bone on bone," which is what causes the most pain. Some days are worse that others, but it aches almost constantly. I try not to complain to people because 1. It doesn't help and 2. I don't want to be thought of as a wuss. So, I just muddle on and fake feeling good most of the time.

I fell last fall and broke my foot, and have now got to contend with residual arthritis there, too. Honest to God, I think I am falling apart! Though I know that isn't really possible. LOL! Then there's the deteriorating spinal column. That causes pinched nerves off and on throughout by body and also causing my organs to become "bunched up." So far, that hasn't been too much of a problem, but it's another thing coming on the horizon. Add to that an enlarged prostate and 2 small kidney stones, and there you have a classic example of what you can look forward to as you guys grow older.

Oh, and my optometrist said that I have cataracts forming on both eyes, but last exam he said I had a few years to go before I'd have to have anything done about them.

All this being said, I still get up and around each day, usually before the sun comes up. I have my coffee, do the usual household crap that needs to be done. Living alone, that includes everything! I still love to read and mess on the computer. I still love to create art, and try to do something creative every day. I still work my crossword puzzle and sudoku puzzle every day, too. I still maintain my house, but I hire someone to mow my yard, which I have hated to do since about age 12. Ha!

I am still on this side of the sod and I guess for almost 76 yrs old that's a good thing. Really, today everything just seems bigger. I am tired of the pandemic. I am tired of self quarantining, tired of wearing a mask and especially I am tired of not seeing my family and friends, being able to give them a hug and hang out. 

There will be better days, or at least that is what I am still hopeful for.

Until next time

 Go, create something!

JF 

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